~*StellaMorte*~ 

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Woo! I had a wonderful night! I got to know the coolest person...^.^ It was very exciting. And, I was enlightened by The Last Samurai, GREAT MOVIE! Not only that, but we even had Barnie's coffee...and Denny's coffee...Isn't that magnificent? ^.^ Wonderful, wonderful night.

That is all,

amore

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I always love to read Mike's writings. He's so talented and brilliant. They make me smile.

I spent all night last night wrapping Christmas presents...It made me smile too. I like to see colorful things around me...it takes the grey out of life, but sometimes, that grey is beautiful too. A perfect balance is needed, between grey and color. Christmas eve will be grey...when all the colorful things are thrown away, and everyone is gone...all the noise and laughter ceases, and I'm left here alone, all the surprise killed, but then, that is another wonderful part of life, too.

Life's perfection..It is what it is.

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I was looking through pictures of my cousin and me from this past summer....it's amazing how much has changed...
Life seemed so much simpler then....We were so spontaneous and silly. All we did was run around everywhere taking pictures of things and ourselves. We would do our makeup and hair, go to the mall, try on $10,000 dresses and have mini-photo shoots. We would hang out downtown, wearing scarves and berets, drink tea, and pose in front of unique signs or shops. We went hiking, riding, dancing, everything. Now, I go to school and she works. It's like the summer that was lost...that's how almost every summer is...It's like a breath of the stars when you've been living under a bleached-out sun for too long. Then it all fades away....

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Apparently, Joseph Stalin founded the Mormon religion. ^.^

Inside joke. hehe. Oh, I love you silly Stasha. Anyway.

WONDERFUL day!

This morning I was given the best gift in the world, besides plaid shoes: the RFAD (Requiem for a Dream) Soundtrack!! Oh...it truly is the most beautiful music in existence...Truly...

Thank you so much Lucas!! ^.^ I'm still smiling, as it turns out.

THEN, as if things couldn't get better, I was given my FOURTH scarf from my AP secret santa...how wondrous is that?
Now I have eleven scarfs...Oh, I love scarfs...but of course, scarfs aren't in as high esteem as the soundtrack..nothing compares, besides the movie!

And tonight, in boredom, I found this box in my pantry that was filled with my Christmas stuff from last year! (I kind of moved and never went through my Christmas gifts). I found a lot of paint...including acrylics, which I've been lusting after for a year. How lovely..

Ahh...the Summer Overture! (it's the first song on the soundtrack)
Go Clint Mansell, Kronos Quartet, and Lucas! Woo!

Love to you all. ^.^

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You know, everyone has someone that they open up to..someone that they talk to...someone they are able to relay their emotions to.

But what if you don't?
What if you're forced to keep it all inside,holding the weight of it alone...only you knowing, and hurting...and there is no possible way you can tell anyone else, nor, would anyone else care.

What a horrible burden.

I'm screaming for someone to take this away, but my screams are silent, and I suppose I like them that way.

Don't listen...
Don't listen...

But it hurts...

Don't listen...

"beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end"

Nine Inch Nails, "Hurt"


Love be with the world, and all her woes.

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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.
What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla

That's my soul, as it turns out. Highly interesting...
it's kind of scary-it actually fits me. DUN DUN DUN!

Oh..and it snowed today, and I slept, and I'm sick. It's alright though..I drank some esiak tea. ^.^

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I'm listening to a song, it's called A Perfect Sonnet, and it's by Bright Eyes. ^.^
Here it is:
lately i've been wishing i had one desire
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing matters
all would be clear then
but i guess i'll have to settle for a for a few brief moments
and watch all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
because that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
you are here and then you're gone
but i believe that lovers should be tied together and
thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
left there to drown
in their innocence
but as for me i'm coming to the final chapter
i read all of the pages and there is still no answer
only all that was before i know must soon come after
that is the only way it can be
so i stand in the sun
and i breathe with my lungs
trying to spare me the weight of the truth
saying everything you have ever seen was just a mirror
and you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
and now you are laying ina bathtum full of freezing water
wishing you were a ghost
but once you knew a girl and you named her lover
and danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
but autumn came, she disappeared
you don't remember where she said she was going to
but you know that she is gone because she left you a song
that you don't want to sing
we're singing i believe that lovers should be chained together
and thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
and left there to burn in their arrogance
but as for me i'm coming to my final failure
i've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
but i still ended up becoming something other than what i had planned to be
now i believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
and layed entwined together on a bed of clover
and left there to sleep
left there to dream of their happiness

Anyway, other than that, my aunt and I are trying to decide where all we're going to in Europe. Or rather, in what order we're going. ^.^
In three weeks I'm flying to Sanibel Island and I'm staying for 2 weeks, woo!! Christmas in the Caribbean! Hmm..
What else?

dum dum do.

My room is plastered in papers that I just threw out of my notebooks, haha. Oh! Yes! Midterms today! AP English: 98 A, Latin II: 90 B (holy hell, I'm a failure! I NEVER make Bs in Latin, good thing I have three weeks to bring it up three points...)US History Honors: 106 A, and Int. Math III Honors/Algebra II Honors:99.4 A
EXCITING!

Hmm......Yes, that's about it, I do believe. Oh! No! Wait!

Saturday I went downtown to Green Eggs and Jam with Misty, Mike, Christy, Randy, and Heather. We watched some local thrash-metal bands, including Sanctity (www.sanctityweb.com)
Mike and I pretty much sat on an amp in the corner and watched in immobile silence, it was fun though. ^.^
and....we ate at the Mellow Mushroom, went to Vincent's Ear for some hot peppermint tea (because it was 29 degrees outside, seriously), then, after we decided we were cold enough, we hiked back to Christy's car and went to Jessie H's house (she happened to be in Oklahoma with her ex-girlfriend >.< we missed her!)So..fun..yes...fun. Woo!!

Vivae pulchrae mea amo.

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Oggi era un giorno piacevole. Esso la nevica/glassa un pezzetto. Eccitare! Io ?? andato alla drogheria e ha comprato alcune soia , alcuni pollo-libera , alcuni impressionante soia zenzero , ed alcuni succo. Le gioie di un giorno semplice. ...

Oh, si, Bryan ?? venuto ieri. .....

o.o''''

Have a nice day!!

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Hahaha. Man. People are crazy hypocrtical. My aunt told me a story of how one of her renters at her complex called her a "snooty rich bitch" and my sister went crazy, telling her that she wasn't rich and all this...and so I told my sister about how some people think I'm conceited, then she went off on me, telling me that I am. What the crap? Then when I told her I didn't want to talk to her or hear her ridicule me, she told me I was too defensive. What? Oh, I'm sorry, I'm being like you...forgive me. I mean, seriously....Oh well. Some people just have issues and need to be control freaks to understand life. Hum di do.

I cooked today! Woo! It was fun. I don't even know how to cook, but it was exciting. I made some funky vegan nut roast (because, yes, I'm one of those crazy vegans) and I made some butter tart pie, and some cranberry-sweetpotato bake. Yay! I usually don't eat though. It's not fun. Food is disgusting. I think I want to be anorexic...wait, my mom won't let me. Last time I tried that she threatened to take me to the hospital, where they would put an IV in my hand...and I have this weird thing about my hands...man..I can't stand them to be touched in any way...I must keep them safe so I can paint and play my music. Am I a lunatic? Just nod and smile.

Happy Feasting Day everyone! ^.^
I give thanks to the Puritans. What?

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I'm finally finished with that ridiculous US History project. *whew*. I believe it came out nicely. I've gotten a total of an hour's sleep this week. Sarah's crazy cats...ugh. Anyway.

Sunday I was able to ride for two full hours. That was most enjoyable. Play Boy (my horse) seemed to enjoy it too, he hadn't been out in almost a week.

Oh! I'm getting my hair done Saturday. Yay! I finally found something I like, so..woo.

And I'm sick of crazy guys. Especially crazy guys that are annoying and crude. Like the ones that call you "unattractive" and "fat" (especially when you only weigh 104 pounds). Anyway. There are some guys who are actually kind. ^.~ Today has been a drab day. My arthritis has been psycho and my eyes have watered all day, How bothersome is that? Hum dum do..what else? Nothing! Happy feasting!