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If I could choose a day to die, it would be a day like today.
However, it is fun to skateboard on ice. That's close enough to dieing. Woo!
J'aime vous
(four hours and fifteen minutes later)
One time, not that long ago, someone loved me. Even longer than that, I loved someone. But things fall apart, everything comes crashing around you. The motto isn't "kick 'em while they're down" it's "beat them, smash them, break them, crush them into the ground as far as they'll go while they're down". It truly is. What happens to happiness? Does it just up and drift away one day? I was happy last week. I was happy with where I was. Of course, I haven't been loved in a while now. But I was okay with that. Once you've been lonely for long enough, it's all okay. It's not so bad. But then, you meet someone, and you aren't so lonely anymore. And by Gods! You even find yourself happy. But what happens? No one cares. At all. You find that life is entirely pointless. What are we living for? For tomorrow? For the next caress? Just one more smile? What am I going to do? Go to college? Woo! That's so exciting! Then! I'll get to pay bills and have a job. Wow, there's life for you. And they keep saying that love is what life is for. But what if love doesn't exist? I sincerely don't think that it does. No one cares about anyone else anymore. And if you do, the best thing to do is to hide it, because you know that you'll just be laughed at and it will be thrown in your face. I'm so sick of this game. What if, for one day, you could go around and tell everyone how you truly felt about them. That would make things so much clearer. But that will never happen. We'll all be left in a dark, foggy little world, pretending to love. Never loving. Never realizing love. What's wrong with me? I think if I could find out what makes me cry, what makes my world beaten down, then maybe I could fix it. I just want someone in this world to care.....I don't want to be lonely anymore. I'm sick of it all. Wee!! I'm going to go run around in the snow and dance like I'm alive!
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